Diary of a TransMasc Whore

I Wish I Believed in God

I wish believed in God

I wish I heard that gentle whisper in my head and felt the warmth of his power and protection

I wish I knew with certainty that with nothing but a prayer he would give me

SAFETY & SALVATION

At times like this, I wish I believed in God

I crave the comfort in knowing that beyond my suffering is an ETERNITY of PEACE and that one day none of it will matter

I want justice for the atrocities that befall the sorrowful faggot. If I believed in god I might be content with JUDGEMENT DAY

But I don’t

At least not in your way

Not to the point where I think prayers mean something without action

I despise those who send prayers instead of sanctuary

For every set of uncalloused hands folded tight, my heart is hardened with ire

I stand bleeding and curse the name you whisper to for forgiveness and mercy

Jesus FUCKING Christ what a joke

We will live and love and suffer and die alongside everyone else because I know JUDGMENT won’t come

Not in the way that is WRITTEN

My faith relies on the strength of my people

We will answer each others prayers

Bring forth truth in a free Eden

We will have Heaven on Earth

Even if takes life after we're gone

Our battles lost will plant seeds for battles to be won

And even if not given from above, we will have SALVATION